baby that letter…. that letter is the most beautiful thing anyone has ever written for me. it gave me so many butterflies, but at the same time made me so sad. i miss you so much and it’s unbelievable how much it hurts me every single day to be so far away from you. all i can think about is how much i want to be where you are, how much i want you to be here with me. i just want to fall asleep with you. i just want you closer.

and you know, sometimes…. sometimes i need to break down too. i hold it all in so tightly, how much i miss you, how much it hurts, and then sometimes it just all hits me at once. like last night, for you and for me. sometimes seeing you cry gives me a reason to let myself cry, to let it all out. so please don’t turn away, cry with me instead. everything is going to be okay. i’m still going to be here, in two months, in eight months, in two years, in however long it takes because i want to spend my life with you.

you are everything i want.

-alex