i just want you to be happy, whatever that means. i hope you get that job because i think you’d have a lot of fun there; you’d get to work with people you can talk to about stuff you’re interested in, which is awesome.

sometimes i just get really scared that i won’t be able to make it here; that i’ll have to come home, give up, admit defeat. admit that i wasn’t able to make it on my own. i want to be able to do this, i want you to be proud of me, i want to be proud of myself. i don’t want you to ever think that i’m not capable of taking care of myself. i don’t want you to think you have to take care of me, because i would never ask you for that. i don’t ever want our relationship to be bogged down by money issues or by either of us owing things to the other person because i’ve seen how that can really damage the love between two people. you don’t ever have to buy my love or spend any money on me. i’m always going to love you regardless.

and just so you know, when we’re on the phone, i always wait for you to hang up first because i never really want you to go. i’d stay on the line as long as you’re still there on the other end.

you are everything to me, beautiful. i’m not going to do anything to screw this up.

- alex.