i need you to know that i want you to make a decision based on what is right for YOU and only you. it is ultimately your life you will have to live and i want to make sure you aren’t making this decision based on me. i know i am part of it but i don’t want to be the only reason. part of me does wish you moved home but at the same time i want you to stay there because it is what you have wanted your whole life.

i guess i just miss you, a lot. And whatever decision you make, I promise to take care of you, be there for you and love you for as long as we are together and with all m heart. I can see both us having lives in both cities. Calgary being easiest because it is close to home, everything we know, our families and friends….it IS home. But at the same time, Victoria is a new place. It can be fun and exciting and you can learn many new things and say that you LIVED there…somewhere away from everything else. whatever decision you make sweets, I will support you.

I am just worried for myself because I want to make sure I have a job that can support us…me…rent…bills and eventually a baby and extra spending money for whatever else i want. you know? Being here, home, I do have my foot in a door. I don’t know if it’s the right one but there IS a door open for me that can allow me to make sure I have all of those things. And then there is family. i love my family dearly, they are so important to me. i want to watch my cousins grow up and i want to be there when my brother or sister have kids or maybe my aunt has her first or my other aunt has her third.

At the same time, the life i want is with you. wherever it will be…i will be there. i just want to make sure that we can live a good life, without “just making it” or paycheck to paycheck. i want to be able to live comfortably with you. with no worries.

whatever decision you make though, i support you 100%. and i will be there by your side. i promise you that.

i love you.

-k