i can’t take that away from you alex. i’m sorry. i just can’t. i feel like i am giving you an ultimatum when i’m not. i can’t leave my family. i’m so close to them perhaps more so than you are with your family. i need to see them more than twice a year. i need to be there for birthdays and random family dinners. BUT at the same time, i can’t be there. wanting to be there at first was something i was going to do. then i thought about my family and the reality of it when i move there…i will never see them, i will never get to be around them. And yes, calgary is like a poison to me too. i hate it here. but the one thing that makes me want to stay is my family because i feel safe, they are my support system. i would do anything for them.

i don’t want you to give up on your education, i don’t want you to leave the place that makes you so happy. that is asking for too much. And i guess it leaves us with a hard decision to make. but if it means that you can do/be/live the way you have always wanted your whole life…then i will be happy for YOU. so…

i am asking you to stay. we will figure us out.