what i wouldn’t give to erase the past few days.

if only we could have held out for ten more days. just ten more and i would have been there and everything would have been okay. we could have cuddled and spent time together and gone back to just being us, we could have washed away the stress of the distance.

but it went too far. i can forgive you, i know you had your reasons for saying what you did and reacting the way you did. i know you aren’t perfect, no one is. i forgive you. but i can’t be with you after that. if it happens once it could happen again and i am not going to let it happen again, i deserve more respect than that. everyone deserves more respect than that, it’s not just me, it’s that you just can’t talk to people that way.

i love you. i want us to be able to be in each other’s lives and be friends but i understand that that might not happen for a while. i never wanted to hurt you, all i want is for you to be happy and it’s taking everything in me not to just fix things. but i just can’t. i’m sorry.

i’m always going to be here for you whenever you need me. please know that.