i would do anything to make it better because i know its something i can’t take back.

i would give up anything that had the most value to me if it meant you would be mine again.

there’s nothing i want more in world then for you to feel okay and happy again.

i hate that i hurt you so much. it kills me inside.

i hate that i became the very person i never ever wanted to be and treated the girl i love the most, out of every person i’ve date, like someone who had no feelings.

i hate myself and everything little particle in me for allowing myself to do what i did.

i hate the past few days because now they are permanently scarred into our lives.

i hate that you lost trust in me and that you are afraid feel the way you once did.

i hate that i am the cause of all your pain right now.

i just hate myself and everything i did and i deserve every consequence that i have felt and all of  the ones that are still come. but i promise you on everything i own, everything i feel, everything that means something to me that it will never happen again. that i will NEVER treat the one person who means the most to me in my life, the way i treated you lately. never again.

i promise you with everything i am.